Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 7 : Here Comes Reality Check O.o

I'm just a DREAMER all this time!

I didn't realize what I should've done!

I'm too afraid to do what I think I should do!

That "REAL EFFORT" is REALLY SCARY!

I wanna ask myself: DO I REALLY HAVE THE PASSION AND THE DETERMINATION?! HUH?!

Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 6 : My Kkum...

My dream is like the sky, it has no ending.

That dream won't end until it has been achieved.

That day may be far, but I am sure it will become a reality.

Just like the dream I had yesterday,

Just like the life I had in my head,

Infinite like the universe,

And as far as the moon and sun,

Like the fingers in my hands,

We'll always be together.

*Finished @ 05:26AM while listening to "The Heirs" OSTs and while looking at the sky and the bright, clear, fresh things in front of me.*

Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 5 : A Dream That Can Suddenly Disappear...

05/15/14 @ 05:45AM (Recorded on Notepad)

Location: Van (Real Time & Date Unknown)

I don't want to open my eyes if I'm at a place where I know my dreams won't come true or even have a chance to come true. 

Every time I close my eyes, you could see me smiling like there's no tomorrow; because I am too busy visualizing myself performing on a huge stage and so many fans are there cheering for me and supporting me (haha there are even loud fanchants kkk..) while I sing and dance with all my heart.

But all of these ends as soon as I finally open my eyes, It all disappears... Suddenly, everything turns into reality...

Day dreaming can sometimes be a great medicine for your heart and soul, and sometimes, it can be a dangerous poison... and the next thing you know. REALITY CHECK!

I want to open my eyes when my "dream reality" finally happens.

Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 4 : Motto Changed!

04/18/14 @ 07:04AM

I think my motto has changed. I thought I can do anything because I have the passion and the determination... but I was wrong -___- You should have EFFORT! (I already knew about that before but I didn't realized that the effort that I should do should be "Real Effort!") But how?! what exactly am I going to do?! 

That "LUCK" in reality, is kinda or more likely impossible to get. Unless it's a miracle.

Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 3 : Probably A New Motivation At The Same Time Reflection.

As I watch this girl dancing, I realized that I’m too old for what I am right now, as a K-Pop dancer...  

She's almost equal to my skills... and somewhat similar with me in terms of learning dance steps... 

I think I should start learning REAL dancing. I should LEVEL UP and IMPROVE MORE, MORE, AND MORE!!!

That way, I’m going to be the best. 

Not like a girl dancing in the back.

Thanks Kathelyn for making me realize and understand it.

Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 2 : What In The World Am I Doing?! I Mean Really?!

[051214]

I shouldn't just sit here but WHAT AM I DOING?!

My insides is about to burst wanting to practice now and IMPROVE!

But my body is giving up right now and my mind is fighting on what to choose... 

Laziness or Improvement.

I know what I should do but thinking about it makes me want to postpone it... 

Until in the end, I never did it…

Almost 2 Years Old Random Notes # 1 : Losing Hope. . .

Thinking that my dream won't come true is a big nightmare for me. The fact that no one truly knows what I feel inside and what I really aim for is such a big disappointment. They don't understand it because to them, it’s just a delusional dream. But for me, it’s my whole life. It’s my life-long dream. And knowing that I only have at least .01% of achieving it really breaks my heart and my mental state of mind. Thinking of a way to achieve those is easy (REALLY) but doing it is VERY RISKY. It’s either It might destroy your life but at least you tried, or achieve a great success in your dream but in the end, you have nowhere to go.

Thinking and knowing that I still have a chance (or not); I really want to take that risk. But how... actually I know how but I’m kinda afraid… I’m actually the type of person who does A LOT of thinking before doing anything so… It’s hard.